Coming off after 10 years non stop self administered "trt" MISSION IMPOSSIBLE RECOVERY

[coaster1215]

So, firstly - I am completely aware I have a <1% chance of ever making a FULL recovery and the chances are I'm going to end up on TRT for life. But anyway - always up for a challenge and I hope this gives others who are in a similar situation some motivation.

Straight to the story:
Hopped on at age 21 - Testosterone cypionate 250mg(1ml) weekly
Never hopped off. (go figure)
Never used any other compounds
Never blasted higher/ Cruised on lower
Just straight 250mg test cyp every week for 10 years straight

Throughout the 10 years I have been keeping E2 in range with aromasin 6.25mg EOD
Never used HCG (I know....)

Why did I hop on? A mixture of ex eating disorder sufferer as a teenager plus an "all or nothing" personality.

As a natural I got down to almost competition levels of conditioning - I felt how shit life was as a 6-8%BF natty (no energy, no libido etc) - figured I had two options, either sustain a more healthy bodyfat naturally or start exogenously injecting testosterone to maintain this level of leanness whilst being happy. So I chose the red pill.

Now I'm maturing and realizing all this was doing was masking my eating disorder/mental health. I feel like its time to face my bullshit head on.

The reason I'm want to come off? Simple - I never should have jumped on gear.
The physique I'm happy with is 100% totally achievable naturally
Nothing about my goals in the gym required gear
The gear use was just adding to my eating disorder and body dysmorphia - I'm ready to face those demons and I realise I absolutely do not wan to be a slave to something I dont need

So lets get straight to the ****ing fun part shall we
Blood attached - last ever set of bloods taken around 4 days after my last pin

Fun times ahead...

 

[Guided_by_Voices]

Good luck to you. If you give us a bit more detail about your recovery protocol, we may be able to suggest some things. You'll want to get your Vitamin D over 50 in a safe way (including K2). Something that I've seen no mention of but which might help is cow testicle capsules. I had always thought that was unlikely to do anything, however I heard Paul Saladino say recently that there is apparently some evidence that it acts a signaling molecule, so I've added to my protocol and it seems to help although there's no way to know for sure. I would avoid going to failure on any of your sets and instead focus on more sets with near-maximal weights. Avoiding the stress on your nervous system that max-effort reps create should help your recovery ability from your workouts without costing any strength or progress over the long term.

 

[Vince]

So, firstly - I am completely aware I have a <1% chance of ever making a FULL recovery and the chances are I'm going to end up on TRT for life. But anyway - always up for a challenge and I hope this gives others who are in a similar situation some motivation.

Straight to the story:
Hopped on at age 21 - Testosterone cypionate 250mg(1ml) weekly
Never hopped off. (go figure)
Never used any other compounds
Never blasted higher/ Cruised on lower
Just straight 250mg test cyp every week for 10 years straight

Throughout the 10 years I have been keeping E2 in range with aromasin 6.25mg EOD
Never used HCG (I know....)

Why did I hop on? A mixture of ex eating disorder sufferer as a teenager plus an "all or nothing" personality.

As a natural I got down to almost competition levels of conditioning - I felt how shit life was as a 6-8%BF natty (no energy, no libido etc) - figured I had two options, either sustain a more healthy bodyfat naturally or start exogenously injecting testosterone to maintain this level of leanness whilst being happy. So I chose the red pill.

Now I'm maturing and realizing all this was doing was masking my eating disorder/mental health. I feel like its time to face my bullshit head on.

The reason I'm want to come off? Simple - I never should have jumped on gear.
The physique I'm happy with is 100% totally achievable naturally
Nothing about my goals in the gym required gear
The gear use was just adding to my eating disorder and body dysmorphia - I'm ready to face those demons and I realise I absolutely do not wan to be a slave to something I dont need

So lets get straight to the ****ing fun part shall we
Blood attached - last ever set of bloods taken around 4 days after my last pin

Fun times ahead...View attachment 51907

Just live a completely clean life and I believe you will fully recover. I know many men that did.

 

[Willyt]

Why not work your way down gradually before going cold turkey? You are in for a rough ride (but you know that already)