coaster1215
New Member
So, firstly - I am completely aware I have a <1% chance of ever making a FULL recovery and the chances are I'm going to end up on TRT for life. But anyway - always up for a challenge and I hope this gives others who are in a similar situation some motivation.
Straight to the story:
Hopped on at age 21 - Testosterone cypionate 250mg(1ml) weekly
Never hopped off. (go figure)
Never used any other compounds
Never blasted higher/ Cruised on lower
Just straight 250mg test cyp every week for 10 years straight
Throughout the 10 years I have been keeping E2 in range with aromasin 6.25mg EOD
Never used HCG (I know....)
Why did I hop on? A mixture of ex eating disorder sufferer as a teenager plus an "all or nothing" personality.
As a natural I got down to almost competition levels of conditioning - I felt how shit life was as a 6-8%BF natty (no energy, no libido etc) - figured I had two options, either sustain a more healthy bodyfat naturally or start exogenously injecting testosterone to maintain this level of leanness whilst being happy. So I chose the red pill.
Now I'm maturing and realizing all this was doing was masking my eating disorder/mental health. I feel like its time to face my bullshit head on.
The reason I'm want to come off? Simple - I never should have jumped on gear.
The physique I'm happy with is 100% totally achievable naturally
Nothing about my goals in the gym required gear
The gear use was just adding to my eating disorder and body dysmorphia - I'm ready to face those demons and I realise I absolutely do not wan to be a slave to something I dont need
So lets get straight to the ****ing fun part shall we
Blood attached - last ever set of bloods taken around 4 days after my last pin
Fun times ahead...
Straight to the story:
Hopped on at age 21 - Testosterone cypionate 250mg(1ml) weekly
Never hopped off. (go figure)
Never used any other compounds
Never blasted higher/ Cruised on lower
Just straight 250mg test cyp every week for 10 years straight
Throughout the 10 years I have been keeping E2 in range with aromasin 6.25mg EOD
Never used HCG (I know....)
Why did I hop on? A mixture of ex eating disorder sufferer as a teenager plus an "all or nothing" personality.
As a natural I got down to almost competition levels of conditioning - I felt how shit life was as a 6-8%BF natty (no energy, no libido etc) - figured I had two options, either sustain a more healthy bodyfat naturally or start exogenously injecting testosterone to maintain this level of leanness whilst being happy. So I chose the red pill.
Now I'm maturing and realizing all this was doing was masking my eating disorder/mental health. I feel like its time to face my bullshit head on.
The reason I'm want to come off? Simple - I never should have jumped on gear.
The physique I'm happy with is 100% totally achievable naturally
Nothing about my goals in the gym required gear
The gear use was just adding to my eating disorder and body dysmorphia - I'm ready to face those demons and I realise I absolutely do not wan to be a slave to something I dont need
So lets get straight to the ****ing fun part shall we
Blood attached - last ever set of bloods taken around 4 days after my last pin
Fun times ahead...
