I'm waiting for my first shipment to arrive in a few days from Defy Medical. In the meantime, a box of 27g 1/2 inch needles arrived from adw diabetic. Today, I injected a B12 shot sub-Q to practice. I get B12 delivered to my house from the VA every month, but in the past, instead of self-injecting, I've always made an appointment and had the LPN inject me at VA.
Today, I was really nervous. I kept flicking the barrel to get imaginary air bubbles out. I injected into one of my fat rolls about 2-3 inches to the left of my navel. After finishing, I waited for the inevitable heart attack that was going to come from injecting air into my veins or from some unseen mistake. So far, I'm still alive...LOL
I have some health issues/risk factors: Obese, take blood pressure medicine, type II diabetic and a history of 3 blood clots from 2012-2014 after a motorcycle accident with leg trauma where the blood clot later occurred and a period of forced inactivity. I underwent thrombophilia blood work afterward and I didn't have any genetic markers for a predisposition for blood clots.
I have clinically low free testosterone (3.8), 332 total testosterone and a clinically low DHT (20).
I went over all these things with my provider at Defy and he listened carefully and asked questions and prescribed me Test Cyp among other things.
I certainly don't have to preach to the members of this forum about all the misinformation out there about Male hormone replacement. From what I have read, Test is actually cardio-protective. Despite that, I'm nervous about the unknown. Every cockamamie negative story that I've ever read or heard about Test is running through my head. I also know that if I don't change my life and lifestyle I could die from that alone.
My rational mind tells me that I'm doing the right thing. I saw a medical professional, had extensive blood work and made an informed decision. My irrational mind says I'm going to die of a heart attack or blood clot.
Somebody tell me that it's okay to be nervous and that I'm going to be okay.
Today, I was really nervous. I kept flicking the barrel to get imaginary air bubbles out. I injected into one of my fat rolls about 2-3 inches to the left of my navel. After finishing, I waited for the inevitable heart attack that was going to come from injecting air into my veins or from some unseen mistake. So far, I'm still alive...LOL
I have some health issues/risk factors: Obese, take blood pressure medicine, type II diabetic and a history of 3 blood clots from 2012-2014 after a motorcycle accident with leg trauma where the blood clot later occurred and a period of forced inactivity. I underwent thrombophilia blood work afterward and I didn't have any genetic markers for a predisposition for blood clots.
I have clinically low free testosterone (3.8), 332 total testosterone and a clinically low DHT (20).
I went over all these things with my provider at Defy and he listened carefully and asked questions and prescribed me Test Cyp among other things.
I certainly don't have to preach to the members of this forum about all the misinformation out there about Male hormone replacement. From what I have read, Test is actually cardio-protective. Despite that, I'm nervous about the unknown. Every cockamamie negative story that I've ever read or heard about Test is running through my head. I also know that if I don't change my life and lifestyle I could die from that alone.
My rational mind tells me that I'm doing the right thing. I saw a medical professional, had extensive blood work and made an informed decision. My irrational mind says I'm going to die of a heart attack or blood clot.
Somebody tell me that it's okay to be nervous and that I'm going to be okay.
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