Just a quick rundown of what i'm going through. I'm 43 years old. Diagnosed with low testosterone in April of 2019 (age 41). Took about a year trying to dial in the right amount of Testosterone weekly. I've had an Endocrinologist take me completely off of Testosterone (which was the dumbest thing he could do.) And I've had several different dosages. 100mg of Test Cyp to around 190 mg of test cyp weekly.
During this time I have severe ED. I'm not even aroused by a mental image or a touch. It's the weirdest feeling I'm going through in my life. I've been married for 20+ years and my wife is beautiful... skinny, implants... a complete doll. A blessing in my life honestly. Unfortunately, with my medical condition... whatever it may be... I have lost sexual desire and naturally she believes she's causing it. Which clearly she's not. I'm financially secure... no house payments. No CC debt. No problems. Just trying to enjoy life... in which the last 2 years have been absolutely hell on earth. I have natural confidence typically in everything in life... just born that way... but the last 2 years... something is mechanically wrong with my brain.... and/or sexual function. Don't know exactly what's causing this... but I've been through so many medical tests. My PCP believes I'm depressed and prescribed me Lexapro 5mg about 3 months ago and I refuse to be on any form of anti-depressants because I don't feel like I'm depressed. My PCP keeps telling me to take the drug and I keep saying No!
My Endocrinologist has me on Test Cyp at 130mg a week roughly. I take 65mg every 4 days. So in all essence I guess it's 130mg every 8 days. I probably feel my best on it... if there is such thing as a best? I don't take an AI at all. Estradiol stays roughly around 35-40 at the low point.
I have noticed the last 2 years or so I tend to be more openly emotional. I cry when watching a touching part in a movie. If there's a song on the radio that makes me think of my younger days... I can cry all of a sudden. I never had this problem before. I just figured that the high and low Estradiol is causing this? I still don't feel like I'm depressed because I really don't worry or fear anything. I workout 3-4 times a week. 1 hour 30 minutes to 2 hours. Cardio included... I try to stay as healthy as possible.
One odd thing I've noticed with being on Testosterone is that my blood pressure was around 140+/82 when I wasn't on TRT. Who knows how long I was testosterone deficient? I wouldn't know? Maybe 2 years without being treated? But in 2020 my blood pressure stayed at 118-122/72 for about 6 months at each checkup and I was satisfied. Then, it lowered to 116.... 114.... 112.... 108.... 106... and it's now at 102/62 my last checkup January 2021. My Endocrinologist told me it's perfect at 102/62. My PCP said she's satisfied with it... she just doesn't want it lower than 100. And a new Urologist I just started seeing said... he's also happy with it being 102/62 as long as I never have any dizzy spells. I asked my Endocrinologist is being on TRT causing my blood pressure to drop? He said.... no... it could be another medical issue causing this... but he said 102 is fine.
So I just started seeing this Urologist... hoping that he could steer me in the right direction. He's very well known and nothing but excellent reviews online. During my first session I explained to him all of my issues. ED, no libido... and lack of penile sensation. He wanted me to do a "low point" testosterone reading. A "high point" testosterone reading. A free testosterone evaluation right after injection. He told me to wait 8 hours after injection and then run to the lab and get it done. I don't know exactly why he told me to do that? I thought after you inject test cyp it takes at least 36 hours-48 hours to reach your high point? Right??
So... here are my labs... can anyone explain to me why he told me to check my "high point" 8 hours after injecting???
Low Point Testosterone (Right Before Injection) 7:25 AM
Total Testosterone 798 ng/dL (Standard Range 175-781 ng/dL)
Low Point Estradiol (Right Before Injection) 7:25 AM
Estradiol 48 pg/mL (Standard Range <53 pg/mL)
(High Point Tests - After 2 Hours of working out around Noon) If it makes a difference?
High Point Testosterone (Approx. 8 Hours After Injection) 4:05 PM
Total Testosterone 803 ng/dL (Standard Range 175-781 ng/dL)
High Point Estradiol (Approx. 8 Hours After Injection) 4:05 PM
Estradiol 45 pg/mL (Standard Range <53 pg/mL)
Free Testosterone Evaluation (Approx. 8 Hours After Injecting 65mg Test Cyp) 4:05 PM
SHBG 14.7 nmol/L (Standard Range 13.3 - 89.5 nmol/L)
Free Androgen Index 189.6% (Standard Range 24.3% - 110.2%)
Calculation Free Testosterone 25.7 ng/dL (Standard Range 3.2 - 19.0 ng/dL)
Calculation Bioavailable Testosterone 603.1 ng/dL (Standard Range 80.7 - 446.7 ng/dL)
Testosterone Evaluation Comments - Free and Bioavailable Testosterone Calculated using Vermeulen formula and assumes an Albumin of 4.3 g/dL.
One thing that works for the ED is 100mg of Viagra (generic form). One pill lasts in my system for about 48 hours. The problem is I have no sensitivity. I'm not really aroused. Nothing goes to my brain saying... WOW! I'm having so much fun!! It's more like.... you're a machine and you are just performing the act with no feeling involved. Yeah... you get to see the girl get off... but honestly... it's really hard for me to reach orgasm. I could last probably an hour without reaching orgasm if I wanted to. Something is seriously wrong.
I'd even consider taking oral steroids to fix my mind.... whatever is causing this craziness in my brain. Nothing seems to excite me anymore.
Thanks for reading... any comments or ideas to fix this... I'd greatly appreciate it.
During this time I have severe ED. I'm not even aroused by a mental image or a touch. It's the weirdest feeling I'm going through in my life. I've been married for 20+ years and my wife is beautiful... skinny, implants... a complete doll. A blessing in my life honestly. Unfortunately, with my medical condition... whatever it may be... I have lost sexual desire and naturally she believes she's causing it. Which clearly she's not. I'm financially secure... no house payments. No CC debt. No problems. Just trying to enjoy life... in which the last 2 years have been absolutely hell on earth. I have natural confidence typically in everything in life... just born that way... but the last 2 years... something is mechanically wrong with my brain.... and/or sexual function. Don't know exactly what's causing this... but I've been through so many medical tests. My PCP believes I'm depressed and prescribed me Lexapro 5mg about 3 months ago and I refuse to be on any form of anti-depressants because I don't feel like I'm depressed. My PCP keeps telling me to take the drug and I keep saying No!
My Endocrinologist has me on Test Cyp at 130mg a week roughly. I take 65mg every 4 days. So in all essence I guess it's 130mg every 8 days. I probably feel my best on it... if there is such thing as a best? I don't take an AI at all. Estradiol stays roughly around 35-40 at the low point.
I have noticed the last 2 years or so I tend to be more openly emotional. I cry when watching a touching part in a movie. If there's a song on the radio that makes me think of my younger days... I can cry all of a sudden. I never had this problem before. I just figured that the high and low Estradiol is causing this? I still don't feel like I'm depressed because I really don't worry or fear anything. I workout 3-4 times a week. 1 hour 30 minutes to 2 hours. Cardio included... I try to stay as healthy as possible.
One odd thing I've noticed with being on Testosterone is that my blood pressure was around 140+/82 when I wasn't on TRT. Who knows how long I was testosterone deficient? I wouldn't know? Maybe 2 years without being treated? But in 2020 my blood pressure stayed at 118-122/72 for about 6 months at each checkup and I was satisfied. Then, it lowered to 116.... 114.... 112.... 108.... 106... and it's now at 102/62 my last checkup January 2021. My Endocrinologist told me it's perfect at 102/62. My PCP said she's satisfied with it... she just doesn't want it lower than 100. And a new Urologist I just started seeing said... he's also happy with it being 102/62 as long as I never have any dizzy spells. I asked my Endocrinologist is being on TRT causing my blood pressure to drop? He said.... no... it could be another medical issue causing this... but he said 102 is fine.
So I just started seeing this Urologist... hoping that he could steer me in the right direction. He's very well known and nothing but excellent reviews online. During my first session I explained to him all of my issues. ED, no libido... and lack of penile sensation. He wanted me to do a "low point" testosterone reading. A "high point" testosterone reading. A free testosterone evaluation right after injection. He told me to wait 8 hours after injection and then run to the lab and get it done. I don't know exactly why he told me to do that? I thought after you inject test cyp it takes at least 36 hours-48 hours to reach your high point? Right??
So... here are my labs... can anyone explain to me why he told me to check my "high point" 8 hours after injecting???
Low Point Testosterone (Right Before Injection) 7:25 AM
Total Testosterone 798 ng/dL (Standard Range 175-781 ng/dL)
Low Point Estradiol (Right Before Injection) 7:25 AM
Estradiol 48 pg/mL (Standard Range <53 pg/mL)
(High Point Tests - After 2 Hours of working out around Noon) If it makes a difference?
High Point Testosterone (Approx. 8 Hours After Injection) 4:05 PM
Total Testosterone 803 ng/dL (Standard Range 175-781 ng/dL)
High Point Estradiol (Approx. 8 Hours After Injection) 4:05 PM
Estradiol 45 pg/mL (Standard Range <53 pg/mL)
Free Testosterone Evaluation (Approx. 8 Hours After Injecting 65mg Test Cyp) 4:05 PM
SHBG 14.7 nmol/L (Standard Range 13.3 - 89.5 nmol/L)
Free Androgen Index 189.6% (Standard Range 24.3% - 110.2%)
Calculation Free Testosterone 25.7 ng/dL (Standard Range 3.2 - 19.0 ng/dL)
Calculation Bioavailable Testosterone 603.1 ng/dL (Standard Range 80.7 - 446.7 ng/dL)
Testosterone Evaluation Comments - Free and Bioavailable Testosterone Calculated using Vermeulen formula and assumes an Albumin of 4.3 g/dL.
One thing that works for the ED is 100mg of Viagra (generic form). One pill lasts in my system for about 48 hours. The problem is I have no sensitivity. I'm not really aroused. Nothing goes to my brain saying... WOW! I'm having so much fun!! It's more like.... you're a machine and you are just performing the act with no feeling involved. Yeah... you get to see the girl get off... but honestly... it's really hard for me to reach orgasm. I could last probably an hour without reaching orgasm if I wanted to. Something is seriously wrong.
I'd even consider taking oral steroids to fix my mind.... whatever is causing this craziness in my brain. Nothing seems to excite me anymore.
Thanks for reading... any comments or ideas to fix this... I'd greatly appreciate it.