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I'll try to keep this short but please read through as I may make a life altering decision soon. I'm 33 years old at the moment. At the age of about 12-13 I got diagnosed with a left sided varicocele (grade 2). I got surgery at the age of 22. My left testicle is clearly smaller then the right one. From a testicular volume standpoint they are within normal range but lowish (the doctor said). The varicocele likely hindered normal growth but that is speculative. Otherwise I have a good physique. Previously I was able to lift heavily and make progress in the gym. I am 6'2 and about 85 KG. I used to benchpress 90 KG although I never used to lift regularly (my highest benchpress was 110 KG which is about 230 lbs I guess). My sexual function throughout my 20s was like this:
16-26 no problems at all. 26-31 I started to use viagra/cialis every now and then but mainly to be able to go a second round. Up until the age of 31 I had regular morning wood and strong night time erections. Since 22 months now I rarely have morning wood and when I wake up at night I do have erections but they are rather week (no comparison to 3 years ago-let alone 10 years ago). In the gym I struggle to benchpress 80 KG although I lift more regularly then 8 years ago. So I definitely noticed a loss of strength, albeit not a huge loss. The MAIN PROBLEM why I am here is sexual function. The last 18 months, sex has been absolutely miserable for me, even with cialis or viagra. I do get erections with the pills , but they are rather 80-90% erections and sometimes I lose them during intercourse. Libido has gone WAY down. Sex without taking the pills seems impossible right now. I have to say that 18 months ago I suffered from a severely broken heart (biggest love of my life but she chose someone else). I would say up until that point sexual function was ok (able to go 2-3 rounds a night with the pills---without the pills just once). However I did notice an absence of morning erections and weak night time erections 3 months prior to meeting that girl.
Initially I was not sure if the deteriorating sexual function was psychological or physical. I actually wanted it to be psychological because I knew the broken heart issue would pass and I would be back. From 11/2015 to 9/2016 I took multiple blood tests(3 different doctors) to see where my hormones are at. I don't have all the labs here but I can tell you what was found:
My total testosterone at 8-9 a.m. was always good: In a range from roughly 300-900 , seven different blood tests revealed the following --> 593, 582, 693, 591, ---my last test two weeks ago revealed a TOTAL testosterone of 491.
The other two blood tests were taken at 1P.M. and 6 P.M. ---both revealed a total test of 350.
My Free testosterone was measured twice, one time last year and one time two weeks ago and both times free testosterone was lowish. The first time the range was 10-25 and mine came in at 12. The second time the range was 10.7- 41 and mine came in at 10.8 !
E2 and SHBG were always in the middle of the reference range. Neither high nor low.
I am pretty healthy overall. I rarely drink, and smoke maybe one pack of cigarettes per month. I never smoked till last year and also stopped for 3 months last year to see if my sexual function improves but it didnt make any difference. I also think that smoking so little didn't really have much of an impact anyways. I weigh 85 KG so I am not overweight by any means. All other relevant diseases like heart disease or diabetes have been ruled out.
It looks like TRT is my last hope---Could it be that despite very decent total T levels I need to go on trt? I actually always put this off but after almost two years of no real sex life I feel like I have almost no choice.
I'll try to keep this short but please read through as I may make a life altering decision soon. I'm 33 years old at the moment. At the age of about 12-13 I got diagnosed with a left sided varicocele (grade 2). I got surgery at the age of 22. My left testicle is clearly smaller then the right one. From a testicular volume standpoint they are within normal range but lowish (the doctor said). The varicocele likely hindered normal growth but that is speculative. Otherwise I have a good physique. Previously I was able to lift heavily and make progress in the gym. I am 6'2 and about 85 KG. I used to benchpress 90 KG although I never used to lift regularly (my highest benchpress was 110 KG which is about 230 lbs I guess). My sexual function throughout my 20s was like this:
16-26 no problems at all. 26-31 I started to use viagra/cialis every now and then but mainly to be able to go a second round. Up until the age of 31 I had regular morning wood and strong night time erections. Since 22 months now I rarely have morning wood and when I wake up at night I do have erections but they are rather week (no comparison to 3 years ago-let alone 10 years ago). In the gym I struggle to benchpress 80 KG although I lift more regularly then 8 years ago. So I definitely noticed a loss of strength, albeit not a huge loss. The MAIN PROBLEM why I am here is sexual function. The last 18 months, sex has been absolutely miserable for me, even with cialis or viagra. I do get erections with the pills , but they are rather 80-90% erections and sometimes I lose them during intercourse. Libido has gone WAY down. Sex without taking the pills seems impossible right now. I have to say that 18 months ago I suffered from a severely broken heart (biggest love of my life but she chose someone else). I would say up until that point sexual function was ok (able to go 2-3 rounds a night with the pills---without the pills just once). However I did notice an absence of morning erections and weak night time erections 3 months prior to meeting that girl.
Initially I was not sure if the deteriorating sexual function was psychological or physical. I actually wanted it to be psychological because I knew the broken heart issue would pass and I would be back. From 11/2015 to 9/2016 I took multiple blood tests(3 different doctors) to see where my hormones are at. I don't have all the labs here but I can tell you what was found:
My total testosterone at 8-9 a.m. was always good: In a range from roughly 300-900 , seven different blood tests revealed the following --> 593, 582, 693, 591, ---my last test two weeks ago revealed a TOTAL testosterone of 491.
The other two blood tests were taken at 1P.M. and 6 P.M. ---both revealed a total test of 350.
My Free testosterone was measured twice, one time last year and one time two weeks ago and both times free testosterone was lowish. The first time the range was 10-25 and mine came in at 12. The second time the range was 10.7- 41 and mine came in at 10.8 !
E2 and SHBG were always in the middle of the reference range. Neither high nor low.
I am pretty healthy overall. I rarely drink, and smoke maybe one pack of cigarettes per month. I never smoked till last year and also stopped for 3 months last year to see if my sexual function improves but it didnt make any difference. I also think that smoking so little didn't really have much of an impact anyways. I weigh 85 KG so I am not overweight by any means. All other relevant diseases like heart disease or diabetes have been ruled out.
It looks like TRT is my last hope---Could it be that despite very decent total T levels I need to go on trt? I actually always put this off but after almost two years of no real sex life I feel like I have almost no choice.
