I first started TRT with far too much for far too long 250mg of T Cyp/week. None of my symptoms (crippling fatigue, very low libido etc. improved) Browsing through the internet, I even tried Aromatase inhibitors incase high E conversion was preventing benefits, but that didn't work. When I finally measured after a few months, I was off the charts. So I kept reducing the dose and testing every 6 months or so until I reached 50mg. When I got a low IQ girlfriend, I found myself getting extremely annoyed at her all the time because she sabotaged everything with poor decisions (but I remained with her because with my low libido, she was the only person who could arouse me because she was willing to dominate me). My annoyances with her only resolved one year later once I lowered my dose to 5mg T Cyp per day (which is 35 mg of T Cyp per week which is 24.5mg of T per week). I think this keeps me in the normal range (will need to do labs, but I haven't because I feel best at this dose). However, lowering my dose so much and my libido was still shit (same as pre TRT and same as when I had very high T). So I tried adding Estrogen. It worked. My libido improved significantly. Still not as much as average male but I think that's because of my very low dopamine sensitivity (I have ADD and CFS). The TRT was a desperate attempt to somewhat treat the CFS/exercise intolerance but didn't work. Now, my best protocol so far to date after 8 years of TRT is 24.5mg T per week (in daily injections of 3.5mg) along with estradiol cypionate/valerate injections every day.
I felt like I had written it myself, but I haven’t started any therapy yet. The only one I was given (Clomiphene) failed. I’ve seen three doctors in my home country, and now live in Canada. I’m a temporary resident, registered in the national system but without a family doctor.
I know that in North America, doctors are more open to prescribing drug therapies even if testosterone isn’t below the threshold for my age. My last test, done a year ago, showed 5.6 ng/mL. After two months on Clomiphene (50 mg daily), my testosterone increased to 10, but it dropped back to 6 one month after finishing the therapy when my free testosterone was 95 pg/mL. The doctor told me that if it’s between 50 and 200, no therapy is needed. But I have all the symptoms.
Before this doctor, the other two had tested me for erectile dysfunction and another related test, blood, and it was clear that I had no physical issues. Everything works fine. The problem is a drop in libido. They recommended psychological therapy, which I underwent, but it didn’t help at all because the therapist only gave me information I could easily find on my own, and she didn’t understand my problem. I have no fears towards women or anything like that. On the contrary, I’m very confident.
I’m now 40 years old, and everything started five years ago, but it began slowly and has progressively worsened. Even though I can still have relationships, I only have the drive for the first round, even with women I find very attractive. After that, mentally, my libido drops to zero. The problem is that on a first date, they think I’m not interested because I don’t have the sexual drive, unlike them. So I’ve learned to act instinctively, relying on memories and behaving like I had that drive, which only kicks in when she initiates things. Over the last year, as my condition worsened, I’ve only received very cynical treatments.
A doctor prescribed me something related to Viagra, but that wasn’t my issue because I have no erectile problems.
Can you suggest how I can find a doctor who can adequately address this problem? What type of specialization should I look for? Andrologist, endocrinologist?
I haven’t made any moves yet because I’m discouraged.
I’ve always been in shape, leading a healthy lifestyle. Physical activity, excellent nutrition according to protocol, no deficiencies, no excess fat, and I regularly exercise. I’ve done swimming, and I still go to the gym. I’ve tried everything suggested as a natural solution.
I’d like to see if a doctor can help me resolve this.