The original point stands. Esterified testosterone is considered bioidentical. When it hits the bloodstream the ester is rapidly detached and the testosterone is then indistinguishable from topically-absorbed testosterone. What matters for HPTA suppression is the serum concentration and the length of time at levels higher than the natural set point. Thus far the only form of exogenous testosterone proven to allow continued HPTA function is the nasal gel.
Did you measure LH and FSH after being on this high dose for some months? If so and they showed normal levels then you would be quite unique, one among thousands or more. If not then the anecdote suggests a fairly rapid recovery of natural production following discontinuation of exogenous testosterone. Topical testosterone would clear the body more rapidly than esterified forms.
Why would I need to test for LH and FSH?
My original levels having returned is proof enough that HPTA function has recovered.
I didn't equate "bio identical" to "esterless", I was precise enough to make the distinction. It's precisely the presence of an ester that causes the shutdown as it doesn't allow for peak and valleys throughout 24h periods. It makes hormone levels so constant that the HPTA senses sufficient hormone levels and shuts down over time.