Well, fuck knows if I want to go this route, because we are leaning towards the heavy chronic stress, because serious financial issues, that are threatening. I won't go into details as its not the place. If you can't earn, you can't live, then you live in debt. Debt piles up and up and up and then you kill yourself once you can't take it no more, as your own project that you have been working for years is not producing the results it should and everything is turning to shit. I have talked with some seriously smart people and since I have tried tons and tons of things during all these years I've been battling this issue, the logic is leaning towards the high stress environment 24/7 which creates havoc on the body and mind and if I won't change/fix this nothing will work. The gut protocols will work for a month or two and then revert back to the mean feeling like shit again. I see a lot of really smart people now talking about this as nothing works for years if a person is under huge stress 24/7. I know you a smart guy as well so what do you think about this theory? Because I can't go on banging 100s of grams of antibiotics, supps, diet changes, which all work fuck all. Not sure when my gastro appoitment will be but will see what they have to tell. I don't expect much at all but will see what happens.
P.s. once I finished antibiotics, had a month or so here in the UK, then I left for holiday back home to my country. I was pain free, could eat whatever I want and happy days. My holiday was 2 weeks, 14 days. On the 13th day, last day of my stay, when visiting sister, we had some tequila with her husband and boom the pain came back with a fucking vengeance. Next day was my flight and I had to leave my family again. Coincidence? Or its all stress related, exactly the way I think.
