I'm a manager at my job. I supervise 10 people. I never held meetings and was just scared to meet with my team. My team was chaotic. I was a meek leader. I avoided confrontation, sat at my desk, never spoke up, etc. My team was actually bullying me!
I started testosterone after going to the doc with complaints of feeling run down, lack of libido, gaining belly fat, even though I was not getting bigger elsewhere, testicle pain, softer erections, etc. They did bloodwork. First test was 290 and the second was 277, all at Labcorp. It took several months, but I started speaking up more. I started giving my opinion. I then held my first team meeting, after being a manager for 6 years. As the time passed, I became more confident, more assertive and stepping up.
Now, I became more confident and assertive, but not aggressive. I was actually calmer, more focused. People started noticing the difference. I'm more of an 'alpha' male but in a calmer, more focused fashion. It was strange. I was non confrontational, but I would be very irritable, and fly off the handle. I was like a PMS'ing woman. It took a couple of years, but TRT make a difference. I'm off of venlafaxine now and I don't have anxiety or panic anymore. My waist is down to a 34, from 40, I'm not tired in the afternoon, and I'm just generally in a happy mood. Sex is great, strong erections and I even last longer now.
