I definitely have tried SSRI meds (Zoloft and wellbutrin) and have seen 3 therapists since my 15 months of anxiety, Ed, and low level (sometimes high level) depression has overwhelmed me. The only thing that was always consistent was my low t levels on blood work. I totally acknowledge I jumped in too fast (no real help from my uro there! But I take total responsibility for not researching enough and letting my desperation get the better of me. But here I am now. The most frustrating thing is I have felt amazing for brief stretches on my 3.5 months of TRT...like my old self. But they always fizzle...today I feel pretty stable on my 120mg split mwf no AI. I am going to be patient and see how I feel over next several weeks. Have yet to hear from endo about the low ferritin or the elevated igf-1. The ferritin concerns me bc of potential internal bleeding, but there is nothing in my stool. I am going to go with defy next month to get them to look at my blood work and to do the initial consult. There is a part of me that wants to do a restart under defy to see if I am primary or secondary. Another part of me just wants to get dialed in and feel normal again. Right now with my anxiety much lower than last few weeks, I am really hoping my libido and mental focus (and ED ) start to come around. But I know it takes time. I wonder if this ferritin thing is a missing part of my puzzle? I apologize for posting so much and rambling on and on, but I don't have many outlets to discuss and explore my trt therapy. My biggest issue is lack of patience and desperation to feel better. I'm trying to correct that and be disciplined. Last week I would have run out and bought iron pills and vitamin c to address te ferritin, but I'm not going to do anything until I talk to the doctor. I will keep you updated and finally take the sound advice of patience , patience, patience when it comes to TRT. Thanks again!
