I have been on TRT, for about 1.5 years. I was diagnosed with a low free T level of 6. I know this isn't terribly low, but it was low enough the dr. put me on 140mg of cyp a week. What he doesn't know is that, I was low because I am an endurance athlete. I don't know why, but this seems to be the norm - endurance sports cause T level to go low. Fast forward several months, I started sporadically having poor training performances. Fast forward a few more months, I came to the realization that it was most likely high estrogen, so without labs to confirm, I went online, bought liquidex, and starting dosing at .3 every third day. I don't recall how long it took to get there once I started taking it. My libido was so high it was annoying. I think I was masturbating 2 times a day. A few weeks went by, and one day I started feeling very strange. I couldn't concentrate, paranoid, etc. If I recall correctly, I missed a dose of the dex the week prior. I went to the dr., had labs ran, and my E came back at a 44 (LabCorp). My dr. was clueless, so I started adjusting things on my own. This started me down a road to destruction. It has been nearly 3 months of tinkering, and I am just as messed up today as I was then. I have had labs done several times during the process (see below). Today, I have absolutely hit rock bottom. I have never been so depressed, weak, fatigued, stupid feeling, forgetful, etc. in my entire life. Today alone, I have thought no less than 50 times death would be easier than dealing with this garbage. I sincerely need help, bad. I paid, for a consult with Dr. Crisler last night, but I am guessing someone like him is in high demand, and it will take a while to actually get in. Please give me some advice. I have a dr. who prescribes me whatever I need, and calls in labs whenever I want them, but I am not sold on his knowledge base. I need to fix this fast, not only for my well being, but I have a major endurance competition in a couple weeks. Again, please help. I know this is a lot of information, and it's not the most organized. All labs are from quest, except for 9/20, which is Labcorp
9/5 - estrogen= 44
9/20 - estrogen= <2, 140mg cyp
9/25 - estrogen= 26.1, test total 1420, test free = 2.8, prolactin 7, progesterone = .3, SHBG = 53.4 Looking back at my workouts, I had a really good day. All of the labs looks to be within normal range.
9/28 - cyp inject - 140mg
10/2 - estrogen = 37.5, prolactin = 2.9 (high), hematocrit 44, test total = 1035, test free = 2.05
I didn't take very good notes from 9/5 - 10/02
10/9 - .25 arimidex
10/10 - .25 arimidex / 140 cyp
10/14 - .3 arimidex
10/16 - .25 arimidex
10/17 - estrogen = <15
10/18 - .35 arimidex / 140 cyp
10/20 - .25 arimidex
10/21 - 10/23 felt really bad
10/23 - thought I was low, so I injected 40mg of cyp trying to bring estrogen up
10/25 - this is my typical 140mg injection day, but I only did 120 since I did 40mg 2 days prior
10/26 - .25 arimidex
10/29 - estrogen = 29
10/30 - .125 estrogen
10/31 - I think I was low, hard erection, weak sensation during ejaculation
11/1 - 140 cyp / .25 arimidex
11/2 - felt low, not confirmed by lab
11/3 - felt better, not 100%
11/4 - felt a little better, had a killer training session
11/5 - tired, weak, good orgasm
11/6 - estrogen = 25, .125 arimdex
11/7 - 120mg cyp
11/8 - felt low, chapped lips, had a pretty good training session
11/9 - felt low, but had good libido
11/10 - decent training session, but not great
11/11 - irritable, depressed
11/12 - estrogen 29
11/13 - SHBG = 56 (high), hematocrit=48, PSA = .8, test total = 1090 didn't feel great, but had a killer training session
11/14 - estrogen 35
11/15 - arimidex .15 started to feel bad in the morning, so I thought I had went high based on the 35 estrogen the day before
11/16 - arimidex .15 I had good erections all night, but felt lousy all day
11/17 - arimidex .20 I am feeling beyond lousy. I tried to train, but my legs felt like concrete. I am beyond depressed, etc.
