well this is difficult for me!
I'm from spain and i don't write english very well, sorry for that.
I'm a male with 33 years old and my life is in a dark place.
When i was 19 years old i suffered with anorexia and with the time i passed to bulimia exercise. Some years well but specially two years ago very bad.( for differents reason)
When I was 28 i passed a period of stress and i began in my life OCD(supersticious and overthinker principal).
In the last two years, all went bad, bulimia exercise elevate, exhaustion all day, cry alone in home, desperate, no libido(no erections in the last 4 months), sleep bad, anxiety a lot but the worst is the fatigue and the hopeless.
I took laboratories and this is the results:
16-Jun-2017 - a year ago
fsh. 3,11. (1,55-9,74)
testosterone-. 439. (249-836)
free t -. 4,96. (9-23,5)
shbg. 76,48. (18,3-54,1)
thyroid
tsh. 2.81. (0,46-4,68)
t4 free. 0,89. (0,77-2,19)
t3 free. 3,51 (2,77-5,27)
-one doctor wanted put me on trt with 250 of cypionate each 15 days.
-other tell me that this blood test is normal
i didn't take, but the symptoms have gone worse in the last year
this year i went for new blood panel
9-august-2018
testosterone. 187,4
testosterone free 2,08
dheas. 95,27 (160-449)
shbg. 72,15
fsh. 1,72
lh. 2,51 (1,80-8,16)
repeat me because the doctor told me that was better repeat
22-august-2018
fsh. 1,66. (1,55-9,74)
lh. 1,23. (1,80-8,16)
testosterone 291,3. (249-836)
dheas. 92,04. (160-449)
in this bloodtest i don't have shbg and free t
other dates:
weight fluctuations. more or less 186 libras
height 1'80 1 meters and 80 centimetres
bodyfat. 16-18 i think
i'm taking prozac, lorazepam(2mg day) and low dosage of quetiapine (25mg) for sleep
i'm in CBT and helps
thanks thanks if you are reading me
Now I have visited two doctors
- one told me- take 100 mg cypionate every week
-the two told me -that it could be a problem of adrenals and he told me that he want study more and in case put me 125 cypionate each 15 days but he didn't know... he wanted study more
i don't know what to do. i suffer a lot because i have extremely fatigue and my only relations are reduce to the gym, and all day if i want do something i need coffee
no alcohol or drugs
food are some days good but others i enter into dispair and binge eating and lot lot lot of cardio in the gym(it's like a scape way)
the ocd is better with CBT (pshycollogy) but i fight all day, and have lot of anxiety and sad. I'm trying to do changes in my life but it's so difficult for me
i had the hope of trt could help me but i don't know if pay attention one doctor and put 100 mg every week (i read lots of histories of exit in trt) or wait for the other
no libido, fatigue, no motivation...
trt helps also with eat a lot in nights? i think this is for hopeless
ohhhh thanks a lot, i don't know what to do. i only want to stay a few better but i don't know if trt is a good idea, but i read some cases of exit. I don't know if all are in my brain, or in some place trt could help me.
thanks all
sorry for my english
