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Good morning everyone, I am reaching out for some help after a year and a half period on TRT. I was on TRT initially with TRT nation but didn't feel that they were worth the money so I went on getting T through underground sources for the rest of the time. I ran various doses and experimented with AIs but really tried to stay away from them. I can provide more information if necessary but I don't really feel that the specifics of what I did will help with my ultimate issue. About a year in or a bit after that, I started getting heavy breathing and tight chest. I thought initially it was hematocrit, so i gave some blood but that didn't help. It kept getting worse, with this strange very uncomfortable feeling in my chest and lungs. Right at about a year and a half in, i went gull blown panic mode when I was with my son out of town and had to go to the ER. I thought I was dying,.......I was up all night with crazy physical symptoms like tight chest, super high BP, crazy racing thoughts, sweating, hard to breath, you name it. I went to ER and they told me it was a panic attack after testing a bunch of stuff. I had been feeling these symptoms for a while but they kept getting worse so I ended up quitting T cold turkey. Of course thats hard to do but I was already feeling so bad that I just did it. Fast forward to now.....its been roughly 9 months since I quit. I have had my T tested and I am producing T (350 total but that was a whle ago) but I cannot shake this anxiety. The feelings are less intense but still present. I have this terrible feeling in my mid section all day that never seems to let up, along with tight chest and other symtoms. I have felt depressed at times and it comes and goes. I have tried pregnenolone and magnesium quite extensively with no help. I have tried basically every supplement on the market also.....different vitamins and such. 5 HTP and all sorts of things. My question is this - is there anyone else on this site that has experienced this? And if so, how long did it last?? I was fully prepared for a battle but thought for sure I would be through it by now. Any suggestions that I have not tried? A few months back I had a virtual appt with Dr Rob Kominarek after seeing a video about anxiety and  TRT on Youtube and he basically said that I likely have a polymorphism that caused this and I should not take anything hormone related ever again lol. He said to try an SSRI like lexapro but I am scared to death to never be able to get off of them. Please help if you have experience with this !!!!