burnoutat42
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Hey Guys
I'm a 42 year old former NPC bodybuilder who competed during his teen years! During my senior year of college I experienced some mild depression largely attributed in hindsight to a myriad of events going on at the time. Unfortunately my generation happened to be the "Take a couple Paxil", and call me in the morning generation! Fast forward 17 years and I'm almost done completing my slow taper from all RX drugs the Dr's put me on over the years which unfortunately included "Klonopin @ 1.5 mg a day for 17 years". (NOTE) It should be stated that I started my slow taper from all RX drugs beginning in July of 2017.
Now before I proceed I want to clarify that I hit the "Sauce", way to early in life from age 17 to 18 to be exact (NOTE) "I Never touched steroids again after that"! Bill Phillips, I love you however Muscle Media 2000 should have been off limits to young impressionable teenage bodybuilders such as myself growing up with access to steroids for those who dared to cross the boarder! Both myself along with a couple other young extremely impressionable friends would cross the San Ysidro boarder into Tijuana every 7 days and inject 250 mg of rediject Sustanon..."I have Tons of interesting stories to tell if anyone wants to hear them"? I took both Novadex and HCG at the time when coming off a cycle however to this day feel some of the "Crap", I went through later on down the road was directly attributed to my early use of "Exogenous Testosterone"!
I have since went through numerous body transformations over the years specifically 1996 the year I won my first show to 2011 the year I fell extremely ill! Before I proceed I plan on putting together an extremely inspirational transformation video as I somehow managed to retain the footage from my shows as well as additional video footage I collected over the years! I have been as heavy as 205 lbs at a height of 5' 9" and as low as 120 lbs after I fell ill in 2011. In my opinion I'm dialed in when I hit the 168 lbs mark "Diced to the socks"!
I never thought I would say this however I'm seriously considering TRT therapy after I get my blood work back from Discountedlabs.com. I fully understand much of what I'm currently going through both "Physically", as well as "Mentally", is largely attributed to both "Benzo W/D" and "Gabapentin W/D". I also want to state that I initially tested "Positive", for Chronic Lyme Disease via Igenix in 2014. The second time around again in 2014 I tested "Negative", at Columbia University in New York! As a result of my initial positive test I purchased a mild hyperbaric oxygen chamber...however it now appears I may have been in "Tolerance W/D", all along?
In a nutshell I feel like crap and after resuming training over the last two weeks don't feel like I'll bounce back this time around without some help? I understand my situation is extremely complex as there is undoubtedly a wide array of moving parts! I currently have every symptom associated with low testosterone however many of those symptoms also mimic that of "Tolerance W/D". Any information you guys can throw my way pertaining to the aforementioned situation would be greatly appreciated! Sorry for all of the grammatical errors etc however I'm still in hardcore W/D living from second to second, minute to minute, hour to hour! Benzo W/D is truly a living HELL I wouldn't wish upon my worst enemy! It's a slow torturous grueling process which takes the lives of many each and every day!
Cheers,
RC
I'm a 42 year old former NPC bodybuilder who competed during his teen years! During my senior year of college I experienced some mild depression largely attributed in hindsight to a myriad of events going on at the time. Unfortunately my generation happened to be the "Take a couple Paxil", and call me in the morning generation! Fast forward 17 years and I'm almost done completing my slow taper from all RX drugs the Dr's put me on over the years which unfortunately included "Klonopin @ 1.5 mg a day for 17 years". (NOTE) It should be stated that I started my slow taper from all RX drugs beginning in July of 2017.
Now before I proceed I want to clarify that I hit the "Sauce", way to early in life from age 17 to 18 to be exact (NOTE) "I Never touched steroids again after that"! Bill Phillips, I love you however Muscle Media 2000 should have been off limits to young impressionable teenage bodybuilders such as myself growing up with access to steroids for those who dared to cross the boarder! Both myself along with a couple other young extremely impressionable friends would cross the San Ysidro boarder into Tijuana every 7 days and inject 250 mg of rediject Sustanon..."I have Tons of interesting stories to tell if anyone wants to hear them"? I took both Novadex and HCG at the time when coming off a cycle however to this day feel some of the "Crap", I went through later on down the road was directly attributed to my early use of "Exogenous Testosterone"!
I have since went through numerous body transformations over the years specifically 1996 the year I won my first show to 2011 the year I fell extremely ill! Before I proceed I plan on putting together an extremely inspirational transformation video as I somehow managed to retain the footage from my shows as well as additional video footage I collected over the years! I have been as heavy as 205 lbs at a height of 5' 9" and as low as 120 lbs after I fell ill in 2011. In my opinion I'm dialed in when I hit the 168 lbs mark "Diced to the socks"!
I never thought I would say this however I'm seriously considering TRT therapy after I get my blood work back from Discountedlabs.com. I fully understand much of what I'm currently going through both "Physically", as well as "Mentally", is largely attributed to both "Benzo W/D" and "Gabapentin W/D". I also want to state that I initially tested "Positive", for Chronic Lyme Disease via Igenix in 2014. The second time around again in 2014 I tested "Negative", at Columbia University in New York! As a result of my initial positive test I purchased a mild hyperbaric oxygen chamber...however it now appears I may have been in "Tolerance W/D", all along?
In a nutshell I feel like crap and after resuming training over the last two weeks don't feel like I'll bounce back this time around without some help? I understand my situation is extremely complex as there is undoubtedly a wide array of moving parts! I currently have every symptom associated with low testosterone however many of those symptoms also mimic that of "Tolerance W/D". Any information you guys can throw my way pertaining to the aforementioned situation would be greatly appreciated! Sorry for all of the grammatical errors etc however I'm still in hardcore W/D living from second to second, minute to minute, hour to hour! Benzo W/D is truly a living HELL I wouldn't wish upon my worst enemy! It's a slow torturous grueling process which takes the lives of many each and every day!
Cheers,
RC
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