Hi,
so this is gonna be a long story.
6 Months ago I was a 40 year old stud, looking late 20's, working out and being built, high sex drive. I got my testosterone tested in march and got 8,2. 8,3 being the upper limit for males aged 20 to 49 (these meassurements are from different European labs, don't know US standards).
I've also taken Finasteride for my hair for 15 years without any problems what so ever.
So, in May I thought that I saw a slight worsening of my hair after 15 years. Warented concern or not, this threw me completely off the rails, because I was a guy looking young and still bedding young chicks.
This escalated into a complete anxiety and depression, even though my hair didn't look bad. I was always prone to anxiety and depression, ever since I was a teen.
So this went on for a couple of months, me feeling down and a constant state of panic. In late August I suddenly felt that I didn't get erections anymore from one day to another. I immediately went to an urologist. He said that this was most likely caused by depression and put me on 5mg Cialis once a day for one month. I got better within days. My depression and anxiety got worse though. In early September I decided to add Dutasteride 1mg a week (0,5mg on 2 days) to the Finasteride to make sure my hair was doing ok. I also have OCD, so constantly thinking about my hair was a nightmare.
Within days I got spots all over my brow. Thought this might be hormons adjusting to the Dutasteride. 2 weeks after I started Dutasteride I deceided to do blood work. This is what came out:
E2: 54 (Normal Range 0 - 50)
Test: 10 (8,4 - 28,7)
Free Test: 0,94 (1,1 - 3,1)
DHT: <120 (300 - 850)
IGF1: 293 (88 - 245)
SHBG: 37 (10 -57)
DHEAS: 263 (40 - 400)
Serotonin: 263 (40 - 400)
Prolactin: 3,5 (2,5 - 17)
So basically my Test tanked from just 6 months before, my free test was way too low and my E2 and IGF1 too high.
At that time I thought whatever. I was so occupied with my hair. I stopped working out in late August because of my psychological state and was rapidly loosing muscle mass. I also was eating crap (fast food, sweets) because I didn't have any appetite and the healthy food I used to eat before I couldn't get down.
But I could still get an erection when I stimulated myself, or when I kissed a girl. I even remember some random erections. Morning wood was 0, but I don' remember having it every day before and I chalked it up to my depression.
2 weeks ago I started to feel that my erections where getting softer. I wanted to see if I got night time erections and did the paper test. While my dong got slightly bigger at night, it wasn't an erection at all. So this freaked me out big time.
I dropped the Dut 1 week ago and went to the Urologist again. He again put me on 5mg Cialis. He said it was good that I dropped the Dut, but said I could still go on taking Fin since I had no problems with it for 15 years.
I then showed him my blood work from September. He said that we could go on TRT. But I balked at the idea. Going from super high Test to TRT for life in half a year was something I couldn't stomach. He said there is no way to stimulate Test exogen, only TRT. I knew this wasn't true though, since I knew that Bodybuilders stimulate their test after a cicle.
Since then I think my ED has gotten better every so slightly. I wake up at night with a semi-hard penis and it also feels less shrivelled during the day. Getting and maintaining an erection is still hard work though, but could I already get a little better? I don't know, but maybe the low dose Cialis is working.
So what to do now? The thing is I can't go off Fin. Loosing my hair would literally kill me at the moment.
Could it be that Dut threw my hormones out of whack in 2 weeks?
Could stopping working out (before I worked out hard 6x a week), eating crap and my constant panic lower my Test that much (Cortisol?)
What can I do to get my test up again? I considered a SERM but 2 things worry me about it:
I already am depressed, how will this be on a serm.
I developed some minor eye floaters when I was 25. I practically don't see them ever except when I concentrade on them, the don't bother me at all. But will this highten my risk of getting eye trouble on Serms?
Would working out again and eating healthy do any good?
Thank you so much for your help!
so this is gonna be a long story.
6 Months ago I was a 40 year old stud, looking late 20's, working out and being built, high sex drive. I got my testosterone tested in march and got 8,2. 8,3 being the upper limit for males aged 20 to 49 (these meassurements are from different European labs, don't know US standards).
I've also taken Finasteride for my hair for 15 years without any problems what so ever.
So, in May I thought that I saw a slight worsening of my hair after 15 years. Warented concern or not, this threw me completely off the rails, because I was a guy looking young and still bedding young chicks.
This escalated into a complete anxiety and depression, even though my hair didn't look bad. I was always prone to anxiety and depression, ever since I was a teen.
So this went on for a couple of months, me feeling down and a constant state of panic. In late August I suddenly felt that I didn't get erections anymore from one day to another. I immediately went to an urologist. He said that this was most likely caused by depression and put me on 5mg Cialis once a day for one month. I got better within days. My depression and anxiety got worse though. In early September I decided to add Dutasteride 1mg a week (0,5mg on 2 days) to the Finasteride to make sure my hair was doing ok. I also have OCD, so constantly thinking about my hair was a nightmare.
Within days I got spots all over my brow. Thought this might be hormons adjusting to the Dutasteride. 2 weeks after I started Dutasteride I deceided to do blood work. This is what came out:
E2: 54 (Normal Range 0 - 50)
Test: 10 (8,4 - 28,7)
Free Test: 0,94 (1,1 - 3,1)
DHT: <120 (300 - 850)
IGF1: 293 (88 - 245)
SHBG: 37 (10 -57)
DHEAS: 263 (40 - 400)
Serotonin: 263 (40 - 400)
Prolactin: 3,5 (2,5 - 17)
So basically my Test tanked from just 6 months before, my free test was way too low and my E2 and IGF1 too high.
At that time I thought whatever. I was so occupied with my hair. I stopped working out in late August because of my psychological state and was rapidly loosing muscle mass. I also was eating crap (fast food, sweets) because I didn't have any appetite and the healthy food I used to eat before I couldn't get down.
But I could still get an erection when I stimulated myself, or when I kissed a girl. I even remember some random erections. Morning wood was 0, but I don' remember having it every day before and I chalked it up to my depression.
2 weeks ago I started to feel that my erections where getting softer. I wanted to see if I got night time erections and did the paper test. While my dong got slightly bigger at night, it wasn't an erection at all. So this freaked me out big time.
I dropped the Dut 1 week ago and went to the Urologist again. He again put me on 5mg Cialis. He said it was good that I dropped the Dut, but said I could still go on taking Fin since I had no problems with it for 15 years.
I then showed him my blood work from September. He said that we could go on TRT. But I balked at the idea. Going from super high Test to TRT for life in half a year was something I couldn't stomach. He said there is no way to stimulate Test exogen, only TRT. I knew this wasn't true though, since I knew that Bodybuilders stimulate their test after a cicle.
Since then I think my ED has gotten better every so slightly. I wake up at night with a semi-hard penis and it also feels less shrivelled during the day. Getting and maintaining an erection is still hard work though, but could I already get a little better? I don't know, but maybe the low dose Cialis is working.
So what to do now? The thing is I can't go off Fin. Loosing my hair would literally kill me at the moment.
Could it be that Dut threw my hormones out of whack in 2 weeks?
Could stopping working out (before I worked out hard 6x a week), eating crap and my constant panic lower my Test that much (Cortisol?)
What can I do to get my test up again? I considered a SERM but 2 things worry me about it:
I already am depressed, how will this be on a serm.
I developed some minor eye floaters when I was 25. I practically don't see them ever except when I concentrade on them, the don't bother me at all. But will this highten my risk of getting eye trouble on Serms?
Would working out again and eating healthy do any good?
Thank you so much for your help!
Last edited by a moderator: