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Hello everybody, this is going to be quite long and I apologize. I’m goin to make it as simple as possible
31, male, 5’11, 215-220lbs. I’ve been lifting literally my entire life. I did an oral cycle in ~Jan 2010 of superdrol. I did the preached PCT of the time, but it was all natural, OTC stuff.. Well, actually I did take Tamox but that’s it. I made HUGE gains.. I was ~22 or so, and I was huge and looked great.
I lifted of and on most of my life.. The army got in the way of my lifting for 4 years from ~2006-2010.
Immediately prior to my second cycle.. Bigger, stronger, faster feeling than ever in my entire life. Hard workouts, looking decent etc. Never paid a trainer or dietician in my life
I did a cycle 28Nov2016 consisting of 350mg eq, 500mg cyp. Ran a 12 week cycle, ending SLIGHTLY early because I got burnt out pinning my quads (HATED it). Last pin date was 21 Feb. PCT started 3March.. During cycle, arimadex ED. Post cycle, super-dosed Clomid (100mg/day for 2-3 days, 50/day for a few days, then like 25mg/day the remainder) but only for ~3.5 weeks until I ran out (I didn’t order anywhere near enough). Long story.. This cycle.. I’m really, really confident that some part of my “stuff” was bunk. Made very minor gains, but could run for hours and had crazy vascularity. I believe the EQ was the only good stuff (I just didn’t take enough of it)… test was bunk. My labido completely tanked. But, what’s interesting is this. I was almost never in the mood for sex.. But my girl could get me in the mood. Once I was actually IN the mood, I was harder than ever before, and blew bigger, stronger, further loads than EVER before. My BF did decrease a bit on cycle, but I only went from ~209 to 218… which could have been due to me eating more carbs than normal.
Post-cycle.. Felt great. For probably a few months i felt fine. There was no real crash that everybody dreads.
Now, here I am, 31 as of June. My doc asked for a blood panel for the first time ever…
Free test 3.1 and 6.8
Reg test 278.8 ng/dl
SHBG 21.3
They told me I”m “all normal”. I told them BS. They referred me to endocrinology. Endo got back to me 3 weeks later.. Said I’m “low-normal”. They TOLD me I’ve used anabolics. They said white blood cell count is low, could be HIV (I’ve had low WBC count for years now.. Not new). They said Hemoglobin is high due to testosterone deficiency. They said this could be due to sleep.. Apnea likely. I need a sleep study (years ago in the army I told them I feel I have apnea, they gave me lunesta). Low SHBG is likely genetic.
I feel like I sleep like a tank! No complaints. I wake up at 5am and most days feel like I could run a marathon I’m so energized. With that said, I’m told I snore, I know that ONCE in a while I wake up gasping for air, and sometimes have bad dreams (symptoms of apnea). This is likely due to a deviated septum and large turbinates in my nose I’ve had for years, I feel.
So, why am I here? I have had high blood pressure for years, my memory has always been foggy but I feel its worse (grandfather on mom's side had alzheimer's), I have like no energy at the gym (I’m not exactly tired… just no drive or energy). My bodyfat is EXTREMELY hard to keep in check and I’m pretty damn good with my diet. I’ve got this damn tire around my belly button, some love handles too… high estrogen? My strength has gone down, but this is likely to me not doing crazy heavy workouts like I used to during/pre cycle.. Much more low weight high intensity bodybuilding stuff now.
This whole thing is sucking the life out of me. Why am I getting fat for that first time in my existence even with my diet being fucking incredible for a non competitor? Why am I losing drive and muscle?
My balls shrunk during cycle but feel normal now. I don't have much sex drive but I can still get hard and blow decent loads etc.
31, male, 5’11, 215-220lbs. I’ve been lifting literally my entire life. I did an oral cycle in ~Jan 2010 of superdrol. I did the preached PCT of the time, but it was all natural, OTC stuff.. Well, actually I did take Tamox but that’s it. I made HUGE gains.. I was ~22 or so, and I was huge and looked great.
I lifted of and on most of my life.. The army got in the way of my lifting for 4 years from ~2006-2010.
Immediately prior to my second cycle.. Bigger, stronger, faster feeling than ever in my entire life. Hard workouts, looking decent etc. Never paid a trainer or dietician in my life
I did a cycle 28Nov2016 consisting of 350mg eq, 500mg cyp. Ran a 12 week cycle, ending SLIGHTLY early because I got burnt out pinning my quads (HATED it). Last pin date was 21 Feb. PCT started 3March.. During cycle, arimadex ED. Post cycle, super-dosed Clomid (100mg/day for 2-3 days, 50/day for a few days, then like 25mg/day the remainder) but only for ~3.5 weeks until I ran out (I didn’t order anywhere near enough). Long story.. This cycle.. I’m really, really confident that some part of my “stuff” was bunk. Made very minor gains, but could run for hours and had crazy vascularity. I believe the EQ was the only good stuff (I just didn’t take enough of it)… test was bunk. My labido completely tanked. But, what’s interesting is this. I was almost never in the mood for sex.. But my girl could get me in the mood. Once I was actually IN the mood, I was harder than ever before, and blew bigger, stronger, further loads than EVER before. My BF did decrease a bit on cycle, but I only went from ~209 to 218… which could have been due to me eating more carbs than normal.
Post-cycle.. Felt great. For probably a few months i felt fine. There was no real crash that everybody dreads.
Now, here I am, 31 as of June. My doc asked for a blood panel for the first time ever…
Free test 3.1 and 6.8
Reg test 278.8 ng/dl
SHBG 21.3
They told me I”m “all normal”. I told them BS. They referred me to endocrinology. Endo got back to me 3 weeks later.. Said I’m “low-normal”. They TOLD me I’ve used anabolics. They said white blood cell count is low, could be HIV (I’ve had low WBC count for years now.. Not new). They said Hemoglobin is high due to testosterone deficiency. They said this could be due to sleep.. Apnea likely. I need a sleep study (years ago in the army I told them I feel I have apnea, they gave me lunesta). Low SHBG is likely genetic.
I feel like I sleep like a tank! No complaints. I wake up at 5am and most days feel like I could run a marathon I’m so energized. With that said, I’m told I snore, I know that ONCE in a while I wake up gasping for air, and sometimes have bad dreams (symptoms of apnea). This is likely due to a deviated septum and large turbinates in my nose I’ve had for years, I feel.
So, why am I here? I have had high blood pressure for years, my memory has always been foggy but I feel its worse (grandfather on mom's side had alzheimer's), I have like no energy at the gym (I’m not exactly tired… just no drive or energy). My bodyfat is EXTREMELY hard to keep in check and I’m pretty damn good with my diet. I’ve got this damn tire around my belly button, some love handles too… high estrogen? My strength has gone down, but this is likely to me not doing crazy heavy workouts like I used to during/pre cycle.. Much more low weight high intensity bodybuilding stuff now.
This whole thing is sucking the life out of me. Why am I getting fat for that first time in my existence even with my diet being fucking incredible for a non competitor? Why am I losing drive and muscle?
My balls shrunk during cycle but feel normal now. I don't have much sex drive but I can still get hard and blow decent loads etc.
